Motherhood brings so much

No one tells you that when you become the mother of a child, you become the mother of every child. No one tells you that every child you see hurt, or sick, or pass away even the ones you don't know, a part of you hurts or feels sick or passes with them. I struggle sometimes to come to terms with the fact I can't save all of them. Things happen-accidents, illness, and bad things. I hold the memory this year of a little boy from Lincoln, NE. I'm not sure why. It could be that he was the same age as my son at the time. The story touched my heart so deeply that I have the story memorized. I feel I lost a part of my heart with his parents. How is that possible? How is it possible that I have this little boy, named Joshua, who lost his life in his family's backyard pool, in my soul? How is it I grieve like a parent for this little boy I met in a news article? I'm not sure, but I can guess it's because I became a mom.

So how do we deal with hearing about things that happen to the children of this world? The only thing I know to do is to hug my own children. I have to learn to take each day to heart and take each one of them to heart. I hold them dear to my heart and I hold them tight in my arms. I pray each day for their safety. I pray for the safety of each child in this world. I wish I could hold all them tight and protect each and every one.

It's a tough topic. I don't mean to bring everyone down. I think many of us feel it but we don't say it. We don't talk about it because it brings us down. I think there is something else I'm supposed to be doing in this life. I think I'm supposed to be there for the children of this world somehow. I can't imagine that I would hold on to all these things unless I'm supposed to be doing something. I'm not sure what I'm supposed to do or how I'm supposed to help at this point but I will find out.

Flying is fun

Please bear with me as this is my first time posting a blog and I'm not sure how interesting it will be right now. But anyway, here's my morning. I wake up to be at the airport for my flight at 8:45am. I am flying on a American Airline Connection flight. Keep in mind, I'm not fond of flying, I have just learned to tolerate it. This is also only my second trip on my own, no spouse. So I talk to myself this morning telling myself that I will be able to leave my kids and not have a breakdown, the plane will be bigger than I think and the flight is only an hour and a half. No big deal. Well, I screwed up on my check-in and didn't get a boarding pass until we are boarding the plane! So I get the very last assigned seat which happens to be in the very front of the plane next to the window which would be fine had a not had to sit next to someone that really should have been made to buy two seats. I feel terrible as I am not a skinny minny and I need all the room my seat allows, but I literally couldn't move during my flight! So 45 minutes into the flight, the pilot comes over the intercom saying we are returning to our departure airport due to a "maintenance issue". I don't know about you but I'm thinking a "maintenance issue" at 30,000 feet is a problem! But alas, we land with no fire department greeting, they put us on another plane and I make it to my destination 2 hours later! I survived, but wow, what a morning! I will never again agree to fly on a connection flight just because it's a non-stop flight!!